Mistakes

How are you? I'm fine, but I'm also not happy. You feel me? Tonight I decided to write after a month of not posting. I want to refrain myself from overthinking. Blogging helps me relax and feel better. Guess what, 2-3 weeks ago, my laptop had a virus (ransomware). That weekend, I decided to start designing our future home, so I wanted to upgrade my softwares. That's when I accidentally downloaded the virus. Sadly, Anju couldn't recover my files and some of our travel photos. He reformatted my laptop and as for me, I didn't think much of those files and moved on. We will just have to create new memories on our future travels after this pandemic. ;)

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Today at work, I made an honest mistake and I felt frustrated. I was able to defend my part, but at the end of the session, I still apologized and said that I will note on my mistake. Maybe partly because I stayed up late last night, credits to KDrama's Cheese In The Trap. lol.

What I appreciated was my boss said, "it's okay, no worries." So you see? I am the problem. I am still bothered until now even though I tried boosting my mood through my workout. After struggling with my anxiety and depression during the first quarter of this year, to tell you honestly, I am still having a hard time handling, coping up and accepting mistakes and criticisms. I remember on one of my job interviews, the HR asked me, "How do you handle criticisms?" Gaash. I did not see that question coming. Maybe because interview questions are mostly defining one's weaknesses and strengths, or telling your job experiences. I couldn't remember what my exact answer. I was able to answer but not aced it, you know. Another odd question came up. "What is your passion in life?". Hahaha. I couldn't think of a straight answer aside from Travelling. I want to explore the world (Proud Sagittarius here, lol) Okay, not related to the topic. 

How about you? How do you handle mistakes and criticisms? I know that when we make mistakes, that's when we learn. Right? Mistakes are vital in our personal growth as we go. "It's not how we make mistakes, but how we correct them, that defines us." 

**I tried to let myself feel better by making homemade s'mores, but it turned out not so good, unlike Bebu's. Hahaha. Also, another comfort food is Boy Bawang + Suka. I always think of my sisters when I am munching this, because when we were younger, not a day goes by that we don't eat Boy Bawang. We love sweet and spicy food. Alam mo yun patagalan kami kahit maanghang. Hahahaha. How I wish we can go back to the good old days when life is not that complicated. Imagine me, writing while listening to Coldplay. Feeling kinda better. Tomorrow is another day. Let's do good. Fighting!

Keep safe,

Kreng xx